Skin and Soul™: Beyond the Pale with Gwenm A. Carsley: Ashakenings: Midlife Crisis/Awakenings that rupture your life.

There’s a point in life—often around midlife—when the script we’ve been reading from no longer fits the voice in our throat. Mine came with a quietly growing ache I couldn’t ignore at a point. Then love. Then a complete rupture. Then grief. In this first episode of Skin and Soul, I don’t give you answers. I open the wound.
I’m not easing into things. I might be sloppy and inelegant, but my aim is to bring something real to the table, whether it’s pretty or not. Without apologies but with conscious accountability. There are things I still barely say aloud—like I left my wife when she had cancer. That I had fallen in love with a man, who I continue to love at a soul level. And that none of it wraps up super neat with a pretty ribbon.
I was starving—emotionally, sexually, spiritually—for so long that when I came into the eye of the storm of what you can call an awakening or a midlife crisis, I was literally sucking for breath. What happened after wasn’t graceful. It was brutal. And it woke me up, shook me up so I could not stay in my life as it was.
This whole journey was born from my awakening—from the ache, the shame, the beauty, and the courage it took to choose my own aliveness.
I use the word Ashakenings because it shakes you to your core.
Welcome to Skin and Soul. Let’s go beyond the pale. 

Watch: https://youtu.be/mQf80oPpA0Q